it's fear, that's exactly what it is

is it

fear that keeps me from

jumping out

of an airplane

for no reason 

other than the thrill

of it all,

the danger,

the adrenaline rush,

or in swimming with sharks

in warm

water blotted with blood,

or bungee jumping

at the carnival

park?

being flung on large

rubber bands

off the bridge?

or scariest of all,

saying

i do at the courthouse

in front of a justice of peace.

is it fear, or just a lack of interest.

i think

it's fear.

that's exactly what it is.