and then it wasn't

i was

very grumpy that year,

and the year

after that.

exhausted,

quiet and brooding,

work was

slow.

the stock market

crashed,

the marriage was failing,

whatever love

there may

have been was gone.

everything

seemed to be coming

to a grinding halt,

dropping me into

a deep hole.

it was a dark time 

to be alive.

and then it wasn't.