it's not love if you feel like this

in the cold,
hands deep into the wells
of my
coat pockets, I stand,
stamping my feet
and wait
for the subway train
to arrive.
I haven't been to the zoo
in some time.
although
I lived in one
for a couple of years.
but now
I just want to see what it's
like,
behind cages and bars,
with me on
the other side,
looking in, not out,
as prisoners do.