radio preaching

i listen
to the radio preacher for a short
spell
in the car. driving
somewhere,
the wipers slapping hard
against the glass.
he's going on about abortion.
the deaths
of millions of babies
since that law
was passed.
it's a hard topic, a hard subject
to deal with,
to digest.
we take a life, to save a life?
i don't know.
he talks about remorse, regret,
sin and salvation.
i break out into a cold
guilt filled sweat.
after a while i switch channels.
then again
then again,
and finally turn it off and listen
to music
of the rain
instead.