if i was younger

if i was younger.

i'd try

harder to be in love with you.

i'd bring you flowers,

chocolates,

i'd write you poems.

give you gifts.

i would call you and

we'd have long

talks on the phone, 

we'd lie in bed for hours

after making love

and share

what we thought of

the world.

if i was younger, i'd

even miss you

when you were gone,

i'd do all these things for you,

and more,

but i don't,

and i'm sorry.