we bargain

we bargain,
we haggle and squabble
with ourselves
over what to eat, what to spend,
who
to be with,
deciding how the day
begins, how the day
ends.
we choose which book
to put into our hands,
which words will tumble
out of our mouths
into phones, or
through cracked doors,
when knocked upon.
we decide
whose lips to kiss, if
such an option
does exist.
what memory
to revisit, in what
chair we will sit
to ponder all of this.