even now

she blames her life
on her mother

her father.

three ex husbands.
it's no fault of her own, she says

to the therapist.
I've done nothing to have this terrible
life,

in ending up alone.

my sins are few and I've gone
to confession.

the priest has forgiven me.

but my mother, my father,
my three ex husbands

they have tortured my soul,
made me who I am today.

even now, I hear their laughter,
their scolding,
I feel the lack of love,
even now
at sixty years old.