Things Have Changed

i make a check and balance
list
of the good and the bad,
the pluses
and minuses,
of the relationship

once in hand.

at one time it all fell
on one side,
the plus,
the positive attributes
of who I thought
she was,

but now in
hindsight,
the tables have turned.

I can't think of a single
thing
to put on the good side.

I used to say that I
wanted to be with
someone exactly like
her.

and now I say
the opposite.