the lemon tree

you want to believe

that God has his hands on the wheel

with your life,

but then there's

this thing called free will.

so what is it?

is He in, or out, or 

does he only take action 

when

you need Him

to get out of a jam?
it's confusing to say the least.

what's my fault

in all of this?

does He save you when you

dumbly go

up into a hot air balloon

on a windy day

and it hits the power

lines and catches fire,

or does he shrug

and say, hey, it was your idea.

is He really making lemonade

out my lemon

tree?

i need more sugar,

please.