i fall asleep in your arms

i fall asleep in
your arms

but you aren't here.
i lean
upon
your lap

stretched out, exhausted
but content,

but you aren't here.

i feel your warm hand
upon my back,

i hear your voice,
the whisper of you saying

things
i need to hear.
i smell the perfume
that you used to

wear,
skin against
warm
skin.

i fall asleep in your arms,
but you aren't
here.