i feel so close to you

when i was

near death from eating some

strange

cut of shredded meat

in an Ethiopian dish,

she told

me that she never felt 

closer to me

than in this moment.

me,

with tears in my eyes,

groaning,

as i lay on the cold tile

of the bathroom

floor.

asking God to intervene.

i squinted my

eyes and looked her 

and said,

what does that mean?