friendships

i used to think

i was waiting for something to happen,

or for someone

to show up in my life

to change things. 

a new love,

a new job, a new house, or car,

some possession,

to assuage my worldly

desires, a step up

for the better, of course.

it was a vague feeling

that followed me around

for years, decades, in fact.

a feeling of treading

water, of not arriving just yet.

but that feeling is gone,

thankfully. it took awhile

to understand that

friendships are everything

and for that,

i feel blessed.