control issues

we try so hard
to control our world.

we do it with routine.
waking up as we do.
the coffee,
the paper. the scroll
of the phone.
the unconscious texting.

the rituals. we ask other
to participate as well.
asking them
to do the things
that please us, makes
us feel better
about our
dysfunctional selves.

we soothe our breaking
hearts
with
control. it gives
us a false sense of
security
in an uncertain world.