i get insomnia and indigestion when with a woman

as i look

back on my so-called life,

i make a list

of 

things like insomnia

and indigestion,

anxiety

and panic attacks, fits

of jealousy

and crazy thoughts.

moments of

cursing

uncontrollably

with my blood running hot.

all in the pursuit of a woman,

or love.

or something

that resembles love.

i'm Woody Allen twitching

and kvetching,

otherwise,

in between relationships

i'm perfectly fine.

happy as a lark.