mea culpa

i take the time

to write a letter, 

a handwritten letter,

mind you.

not something i punched

out on a keyboard

in three minutes.

it's a letter

of apology,

of remorse and regret,

a letter that tries

to make amends,

for what was done,

what was said.

it's a Mea culpa note.

i say i'm sorry in ten

different ways.

but in the end,

i don't feel it, so i ball it

up, and toss

it towards the can,

but my aim is off and it

tumbles

sideways, where the

cat will find

it later

and toss it around.