winning and losing

my therapist

once asked me, 

with reasonable frustration

over my

whining and inability

to move on,

are you trying

to get a win

out of this relationship?

i stared at her,

and thought,

i'm really wasting my money

here.

a win?

i say loudly. do you think

this is why

i'm here pouring out

my guts to you?

a win?

hell no.

i'm trying to get out

of this stupid

toxic relationship

and

if you want to call that

winning, well go ahead.

chalk me up

for victory.

i'm done.