what do you want?

i have a serious
conversation with God.
He can be so quiet and aloof
at times.
or so it seems.
He keeps His cards
so close to his vest.
i tell him what's going on.
give it to him
in plain and simple language.
no rote prayer,
no rosary, or memorized
chant.
i just say what's on my
mind and ask, what's the deal.
what do you want from
me,
tell me.
i surrender. i give up.
just show me
your hand, tell me which
card to play,
to discard, to raise or call.
i'm all in i tell Him,
as i push
every chip into the middle
of the table
and wait.