the party

I can't decide what to wear
to the costume
party.
I don't feel like a pirate,
or
a cop, or
a magician.
I could throw a sheet
over me
and be a ghost,
or put fangs in my
mouth and look
for blood, a neck
to bite. but no.
I can't pretend.
i'm lost.
I don't even feel like me
anymore.