at home

is it bad luck,
karma,
a black cloud upon
you,
or have you always been
in dire
straights.
in trouble with the law,
or someone
that you're related
to by marriage.
penniless and broke,
again.
it seems as if it's always
been your turn
to suffer,
you jump the line,
unable to get out
of your own way.
perhaps
you like it there?
chaos feels like home.