in disguise

you don't know me,
she says.
you've never known me.
who I am, what
I think, what makes
me tick. i'm
not who you
think I am.
deep inside i'm
a very sensitive
and loving
person. my bad
behavior is just
a charade, a
disguise. i'm
really good
and fun, i'm not
mean at all like
you've surmised.
I act this way
to protect myself
from love, from
affection. from getting
too close
to someone and then
breaking their
hearts when I leave.
give me time
and you'll know what
i'm talking about.
you'll see.
you'll see.