out of the blue

I take a cold shower
of truth.

I shiver
in the white porcelain
tub.

I surrender to the icy
world
of knowing
what I've always known.

you come in with nothing
and leave
with the same.

I've been gone
a long
time, but i'm back,
alive
again.

i'm Lazarus,
a phoenix rising.
left for dead
but on my feet
and out of the blue.