no one's watching

she likes to say
things
like dance
like no one
is watching.
but
you haven't seen
me dance,
you tell her.
it's horrifying.
someone barefooted
on a bed
of coals has
more rhythm
and style.
I'm afraid
of being judged,
of being laughed
at. I prefer
to sleep
like no one's
watching,
you tell her.
I'm much better
at that.