the black wedding dress

i should have known

when she bought

a six hundred dollar black

wedding dress

for a basement wedding

with no one in attendance,

that i was in trouble,

the price the color.

and yet, drugged and under

a strange spell

i zombied out and went

forward into that dark

abyss.

trembling and sweating,

i mumbled, i do, but

meant, i don't. 
God please save me, get

me out of this mess.