no land in sight

in the ocean
I swim.
one arm after the other.
I kick my legs
and feel the cold
water burn
within me.
the sun is above
where it's always been,
the ocean is everywhere.
once blue,
a sweet azure
holding the wisp
of white clouds,
I look at it differently
now. I see it as
something that can swallow
me whole.
take the air
from my lungs, dissolve
the skin off
my bones.
I swim.
but I don't know where
i'm going.
I just know that I am
as alone now
as I've ever been in
my life.
tethered
to nothing, to no one.
no boat,
no raft,
no land in sight.