falling fast

I let go
and fall. what seemed
important
is no longer
important.
I've been wrong
all along.
I stare at the blood
on my hands.
the callouses.
the twisted grip
of my fingers still
in place.
I let go and fall.
I wonder
why was I holding on
so long.
I feel the air
in my ears, against
my back.
I am falling into
light
away from the darkness.
my heart beats
with anticipation,
and relief.
I let go and fall.
my hands unfurl
and fold
upon my chest. I am
smiling.
at last. falling
falling falling.
falling fast.