the dream

you dream of a day
when you wake up not coughing.
gagging,
bent over,
your bones rattling
with something
deep inside
your lungs, you dream of that
day
the way you used to dream
about a girl,
or a car,
or something
wonderful like a day at
the beach
with a loved one.
not now.
now, you dream of a day
when you wake
up and stop coughing.