the budget

when you
were younger
you made
a list
on the back
of an envelope
and added
things up.
the electric
bill, cable
tv, gas, water,
food, a car
payment,
insurance
of various kinds.
and then
at the bottom
you scribbled
the word
miscellaneous.
that was
the wild car
that always
broke
the bank.
and now, there
is no list.
it just comes,
it just goes.
why bother
with a list?