kickstart

i am a tourist
in my own town.
a stranger
amongst friends.
i have lost
my way despite
being found, i'm
treading water
in the shallow
end. i've cut
my ties with all
my blood relatives
and set goals
that i'll never
reach. i'm walking
backwards to work.
eating in bed,
sleeping in
the kitchen. i've
decided to start
my own church,
and disown it at
the first high
mass. i'm trying
hard to kickstart
this malaise with
a leap forward
leaving all the dead
weight behind.