the nice day guilt

i'm tempted to do nothing

today.

to stay put.

to not attend mass.

to not visit

my mother.

to ignore the nice weather

and not

go out.

not do a second of work,

not take a walk,

or a bike ride,

or stroll up to the coffee

shop.

i'm tempted

to stay inside, to read,

to turn off

the phone

and not call up friends,

to do nothing but relax

and eat,

and drink,

and write.

i'm tempted to do nothing,

but unfortunately,

i'm still catholic

deep inside.