it wasn't me

the bottles were lined
up neatly in the confines
of her white medicine cabinet.
carefully, while running
the sink water
and flushing the toilet,
I picked up each one
and read
the label, trying to
understand
the true nature of her.
some were once a day
prescriptions while others
said take twice a day
before meals.
some said do not drive
or operate farm
machinery after taking
this medication, and
one said you may feel
lethargic and weak
after taking this pill.
your libido will diminish
and you will lose
all interest in those
that love you.
finally, I knew that
it wasn't me after all.