to the ocean

in an hour or so
i am heading to
the beach to get
away. to leave
this house for
awhile, where it
has grown dark,
and quiet. i will
immerse myself
in the autumn
ocean, in the cool
absence of love,
the memory of
love, and i will
take another
step towards where
i truly need
to be. i will
find a white shell
or two unbroken
and bring them
back to remember
what was good
and whole at one
time, and will
be again.