can't sleep at night

despite
your good deeds.
the volunteer work you do
down at the shelter,
the giving of blood,
recycling,
and adopting a nearby
road as yours
to keep clean, you can't
sleep at night.
somehow not eating meat
became
a religious quest,
making you preach that
good news.
the garden,
all green, organic.
soy milk and hummus,
carob. kale and beans.
at some point you felt
better
about yourself. voting
at every election.
putting stickers
on your car
for the k's you ran.
it's a hard life
to live up to. worrying about
the whales,
the snails,
the unadopted kittens
in a cage on tv.
maybe some of it is
part of the reason
why you can't
sleep at night.