if only

if only
he says, I'd
taken
the other road
the one
I usually
take
then
this accident
would
not have happened.
if only
I'd been
a minute late
or early
for my
appointment
I would not
be sitting here
in this
ditch with smoke
rising from
the hood of
my car.
if only
I'd married
the other girl,
taken
the other job,
gone to a different
school.
if only I'd
gotten more sleep
more rest,
taken a vacation
or two.
if only
my parents had
never met
and had me.
none of this would
have happened.
if only.