going it alone

you have a hard
time
borrowing anything
from anyone.
whether
flour or a cup
of olive oil.
sugar and salt.
nothing seems
urgent enough
to go knock on
a neighbor's door
and ask.
you'd rather do
without.
or venture into
the snow driven
night. it's a flaw
of some sort,
you understand
that. but
you don't want
to owe anyone
anything, it would
defeat your
purpose in going
it alone.