asterisk

after she died
you found
a list of names
on the back of
an envelope
of all the men
she ever made love
to. it wasn't a long
list or necessarily
a short list either,
still there was
a tinge of jealousy,
of wonder
and suspicion.
you were only
saved from further
grief by
the asterisk next
to your name,
second from
the bottom.