it's hard to believe

I've been bullet proof
for so long
that it surprises me when
I get shot
and it goes through me,
flesh and bone.
into the heart.
I look down
and see the crimson
ribbon of my life
spilling out onto the floor.
the heat of my body
rising like a cloud.
not me.
it's never me.
it's always someone else
that's in this predicament
not me.
i'm Teflon, i'm steel.
I fall off of roof tops
and walk away.
and now this, you're
telling me i'm human.
it's hard to believe.