wonder bread

two pieces of bread,
white,
wonder bread from
the colored balloon bag,
a slice
of meat, bologna
from the roll, cut
fat and thick
with a butter knife by
your small hands, a swipe
of mustard.

then you stand on the chair,
and grip
the counter
to rise up and find

a dish in the cupboard.
you see your father's
liquor bottle hidden
on the top shelf,
amber whiskey,

with hardly a swallow left.
you twist off the cap,
and sniff.
closing your eyes
in scared wonder.